I watched a movie last night called the War Room. It was pretty good and brought to light allot of what seems to permeate many relationships in this day and age. What I found interesting was, that in order to heal their relationship, that love and trust had to be put into God and Jesus’s hands. What really struck me was in one scene when the wife professed her love for Jesus and railed against SATAN. Casting SATAN out of her house and life. What came to me In that moment is that SATAN is the darkness within ourselves. That it is the anti-soul if you will. The shadow, the part we hide, repress and deny. That Satan is really here to show us, through contrast, what we dislike about who we are. Those dislikes actually show up in the world through failed relationships, depression, sociopathic behavior, hatred, violence and war. This acronym crept in when I wrote the word SATAN down on a piece of paper.
Schemes are the plans, that I know I have made in my life, to justify my behaviors. These schemes have alienated friends and created much stress in my life. I would also use the world Lie here as well. Because my schemes always involved lies that I could never keep track of.
Accusations I have used to deflect taking ownership and responsibility for my actions. It was always someone else’s fault. I would point the finger at others in order to save face, keep the love I thought I had and to limit the damage I had caused. If I had only known that when I pointed my finger away from myself there was three more pointed back at me!
Thoughts are what kept me isolated from my heart and into my head, where all is possible. Ah yes the stories I have concocted over the years! Similar to schemes but schemes were to get something from the outside world. My thoughts and stories were what I told myself about myself to justify how I was showing up in the world. The mind fuck!
Against, I feel that is self-explanatory. The word against is synonymous with repressing, resisting, pushing against what is. Holding all of the Schemes, Accusations, and Thoughts Against what I was resisting, that I Thought, kept me safe.
Nature, is my divine nature. The part of me that is connected to the all. The part of me that deep down inside that knows. The part of me the Against is holding me back from knowing. The part of me that knows God is part of everything and is not something outside of myself. The part of me that sees me in a small child’s eyes…innocence. Something that was once mine. Something that was snatched away by the wounds of my parents and society at large. A place I have strived to get back to.
What I Found
This was an interesting journey to take. To really see how SATAN shows up. Not as a horned nasty red man but how it shows up inside all of us to varying degrees. It is the part of me that I do not want to look at, love or embrace. The part of me that will keep me disconnected from who I really am. The part of me that remains in the status quo. The man who can hardly wait to get home and watch the artificial life in a box, eating the food from a box and living life inside a box of my creation.
I am grateful that I have and continue to embrace my SATAN inside. He wields much less power than he did years earlier. As I become more awake and conscious of myself and surroundings his power is further diminished. As each of us becomes more aware and conscious, our SATAN will have less playgrounds to invade. Less lives to ruin and wars to start. It all starts inside each and every one of us. Like that woman did in the movie, she cast SATAN out.
Will you take the journey necessary to cast SATAN from your inner world? It takes courage to admit the pain and take the actions necessary. I believe that you are your greatest gift. The key to opening this gift is for you to remember. To re-member, to put back together again, to make whole. With a little help along this journey you can be free of this influence once and for all. Are you willing to start this journey? Your Hero’s Journey back to yourself? Let me know if I could be of service. I would be honored to walk beside you on this journey.